I guess people must be thinking that i am insane.. posting 4 blogs in one day.. the truth is the other three blogs are posted few weeks ago.. but something is wrong with the setting of my blog and my friends were complaining that they cant view my blog.. i have no choice to reset everything again..FINALLY it works 
was really busy for the past one week… rushing for reports and oncall for emergency medicine posting.. had a chance to sit in the ambulance last night.. was following the paramedics to transport a patient from a kampung to Hospital Kota Bharu.. i just tag along with my other two coursemates… during the process, we sort of losing the clue and dont really know what to do besides listening to instructions given by the paramedics… at that moment my mind is blank.. totally blank i really salute the people who can act cool when there is an emergency.. u have to really think and act very fast cause every second counts..
i always think that human is very vulnerable.. even a virus can kill human.. no matter what u have in life.. if u are not healthy, u cant enjoy those gifts u have… cherish what u have in life…pray hard that tomorrow will be a better day 
It has been a while since my last blogging, just came back from korea one week ago.. well this is my first trip to Seoul .. went to attend the Asia Pacific Dental Student Congress (APDSA)..had a great time there.. just that the summer weather is killing me.. so hot.. i sweat alot… finally those korean phrases which i have learnt by watching dozens of korean drama can put into practice.. hahaha..
I spent one week in Seoul. Besides following the conference program, we went to a few popular shopping places - Myungdong, Insadong, NamDaeMoon.. anyway i didnt buy alot cause it is quite expensive … they have something similar to genting which is called Lotte world…
There is one thing which i enjoyed the most.. i volunteered for the community service which was organised by the local oraganizing committee… need to apply tropical flouride to the public.. wow that was fun… need to speak in korean to advice the patient not to rinse, not to eat and not to drink for 30 mins after application… hahaha we were memorizing the korean phrase and trying very hard to pronounce correctly.. i bet they were laughing at us.. but it was fun… to be in another country which speak different language and giving some service to the public..
i think i like to travel … get the chance to experience the life in other country… really thankful for the school for giving me so many opportunities to travel around.. leaving some sweet memories in my life as dental student… hopefully i can do that in the future…
Planing to write something happy this time Never thought that my blog will start with something so sentimental… i know i am a sentimental person but sometimes i like to mask my feelings.. well in the past i learnt that we shouldnt let people know our true feelings (cant really remember who told me that :P)… but i think i will not succeed in hiding my feelings coz i think i am not that secretive i once met a friend who was very secretive.. she is always so cool and very difficult to tell whether she is sad or happy..you can have headache when being with this kind of person cause you dont know what to talk to her and what is her reaction about it… i guess i dont want to let people have headache when talking to me haha
was rushing dateline for report.. oh ya by the way i am in my final year… alone 
in a deserted place called Kubang Kerian in Kelantan… i just cant wait to graduate but i need to accomplish a full LIST of requirement before i can actually graduate… in life we are always looking for a comfort zone - some time in ur life when u are happy with what u have, no worries.. it is so peaceful, no ups and downs just flat..when i was young i used to think that people can reach that when they start working but i find that most of my working friends are not that comfortable. When i was in first year i think i will have my comfort zone after i graduate but when i am in final year right now i dont think i cant reach that upon graduation.. it makes me wonder can we ever find the comfort zone in life? or we need to create one for ourselves…
i guess my comfort zone right now is my bed… pray hard to have good news tomorrow… wish that people will be free from suffering….
Finally i am starting to blog.. i seldom write diary in fact none in the past decade… was writing some testimonial to my dear uni friends and was walking down the memory lane, giving me the opportunity to look back the past. I had some sad memories in the past, some which hit me hard.. but without those memories i am not who i am right now.. there was a friendship which i cherish alot but i cant do anything to restore it back right now.. it wasnt something which i can use superglue to fix the pieces back together again.. it wasnt because i dont make an effort for that..infact i tried very hard in the past but i guess people change alot… it is inevitable and unstoppable.. all those sweet memory will not happen again.. we cant never go back to that stage.. that is making me sad… coz without that important friendship.. i guess i might be a different person right now.. i just cant believe after all these years i still feel sad about it… i thought i was over it somehow… that is the missing friendship in my life… how i wish people stay the same all the time… i wonder will that friend of mine feel the same way.. i think i will never get the answer because it hurts me so much until i cant really talk to that friend.. i tried to pretend nothing happen but it did not help coz at the end of the day i still cant forgive my friend for giving up our friendship.. yet i will mad at myself when i actually think of that friendship cause i feel that it is not worth thinking of the friendship at all… maybe the form of the friendship has changed into something which unfortunately, i cant really accept or understand it… we are not cool anymore… there will always be something missing in my heart.. i wish i have that flashlight in MIB which i can use to help me to erase it cause i dont want to remember it anymore… it is getting late i guess i just need to sleep right now and wish that i will have a good day tomolo… cause i really need one everyday
