On a night like this…
Finally i am starting to blog.. i seldom write diary in fact none in the past decade… was writing some testimonial to my dear uni friends and was walking down the memory lane, giving me the opportunity to look back the past. I had some sad memories in the past, some which hit me hard.. but without those memories i am not who i am right now.. there was a friendship which i cherish alot but i cant do anything to restore it back right now.. it wasnt something which i can use superglue to fix the pieces back together again.. it wasnt because i dont make an effort for that..infact i tried very hard in the past but i guess people change alot… it is inevitable and unstoppable.. all those sweet memory will not happen again.. we cant never go back to that stage.. that is making me sad… coz without that important friendship.. i guess i might be a different person right now.. i just cant believe after all these years i still feel sad about it… i thought i was over it somehow… that is the missing friendship in my life… how i wish people stay the same all the time… i wonder will that friend of mine feel the same way.. i think i will never get the answer because it hurts me so much until i cant really talk to that friend.. i tried to pretend nothing happen but it did not help coz at the end of the day i still cant forgive my friend for giving up our friendship.. yet i will mad at myself when i actually think of that friendship cause i feel that it is not worth thinking of the friendship at all… maybe the form of the friendship has changed into something which unfortunately, i cant really accept or understand it… we are not cool anymore… there will always be something missing in my heart.. i wish i have that flashlight in MIB which i can use to help me to erase it cause i dont want to remember it anymore… it is getting late i guess i just need to sleep right now and wish that i will have a good day tomolo… cause i really need one everyday 
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