It has been a while i didnt blog… went to Kl over the weekend to ‘recharge’ myself as well as meeting my parents and aunties in genting… thanks to Uncle Lim for the ‘pocket money’.. i appreciate it very much… heehee…
notice something different in my mouth… oh my god.. my upper right third molar has just erupted !!!! at the age of 25… that is considered late.. the extraordinary thing is i still remember i took a xray when i removed all my lower third molar 4 years ago, i didnt notice any tooth bud for my upper third molar.. but i have upper third molar now…. *amazed* i hope there is enough space to accomodate it cause i dont wish to go through minor oral surgery to remove it again.. pray hard… 
the weather was pretty moody for the past few days… it drizzles almost everyday… even the clinic is getting ‘moody’… not many patients nowadays… can have some time to chat with coursemates and lecturers in clinic… with the clock ticking… i hope it will not compromise my requirement….
by the way, thanks alot to Jillian for the lovely gift and JiunSian for the cute teddy bear… it spices up my day… also wish to express my gratitude to Amanda, SzeWen, TaiFen, Alexis, ZhiLing, WenSze for your sweet messages… that means alot to me friendship forever….
I turn 25 today…had a quiet and lonely birthday but i really appreciate all your birthday wishes to me… it keeps me warm
Daddy… i am so happy to receive ur call in the early morning… thank you for the ‘ang pow’… To Mummy, thank you for the ‘BIG’ gift… i really cherish it alot.. i am so sorry to make u go through the labour pain 25 years ago and i hope i am a good daughter to you To my brother Kenny… thank you very much for the birthday greetings… so happy that u still remember my birthday 
Special thanks to my Granny and KuMa for the ‘early birthday ang pow’… they will just remember my birthday and always give it early…
Dear KhaiMeng… thank you very much for the sweet sms, voice messages and the conventional and your version of birthday song… you just make my day so happy…
Million thanks to RuYau, SiewSiew, WaiQuan, LayMin, Evon, HoiPing, Chin Keong, SeokYong, ChiewSinn… for your sweet sms, i am so grateful to have all of you as my good friends… To Sean, PeiYing, Jillian and TingKhee thank you for remembering my birthday… it is my pleasure to have you as my coursemates and good friends Sean and PeiYing, the pizza was so delicious. i had a great time to hang out with both of you.. the ’super power dinner’ had just updated us with so many ‘inside stories’ ..heehee
To HuiGuan, HuiLi, SuWei, JinWooi as well as my dear indonesian friends - Andri and Putri… i really cherish all your messages… and also my japanese friend Kan Ogawa for his email… the phonecall from my singaporian friend JiunSian… thank you so much
the list is still going on…dont worry i will update it…:P i hope i didnt left out any… to all my friends… thank you very much… i am so happy to have you as my friends.. May you always be well and happy
I havent make a wish and blow the candles yet… still waiting for the opportunity to do so..
I am so happy today…. probably because of the upcoming BIG day… actually not that big lar… but just giving me an excuse to indulge into things which i like most hihi:) well… i had a chance to assist a lecturer in operation theater this morning.. it is no big deal.. but this is really my first time to do this…
Firstly, you need to scrub ur hands meticulously to ensure that not even single dirt can be seen. Secondly, you need to wear the surgical gown sterilely by having assistant in helping you to tie the gown coz once you are in it you cannot touch anything even your skin, glasses, hair {so you need to endure not to touch anything even that irritating itchy sensation of ur scalp :)}… and when you are wearing the surgical gloves, you need to be aware not to touch the glove using ur barehand at all thus u need to use the surgical gown to cover your hand to hold the glove when u want to slip the fingers into the glove.. by the time you are fully dressed up.. you are FORBIDDEN to touch anything except anything in green (aka the sterile cloth which you use to cover the patient, that is the colour we use in our hospital) and the surgical instruments… the extraordinary thing is there were nurses assisting u to wear the gown and gloves (as you know i am still a STUDENT so i dont have the privilege of having nurses assisting me :P) ..ooowww it feels so good… i feel like i am a surgeon well… there were three dental surgery cases in the operation theater.. i managed to assist the last case… doing restoration (aka filling) and extraction on a down syndrome patient under general anesthesia (aka put into sleep) the funny things is, probably this is my first assisting, i was really enthusiastic about the surgery so i tend to look very near to the patient and almost hit my lecturer’s head during the procedure haha :).. i was helping my lecturer to suck the saliva and blood out of the patient mouth using suction device, retract the lip or tongue that blocks the view and help to compress the gingiva (aka gum) to stop the bleeding as well as placing the restorative material .. it is just like a normal dental procedure with differences such as u have to stand throughout the surgery (you can sit on the operating chair while u are treating the patient in clinic) and the patient is unconscious… it was fun.. i enjoyed it very much.. hope can have the opportunity to assist again in the future.. preferably more complicated case like jaw fracture…
Received some messages today.. glad to hear some news from my old friends.. i am really thankful that they are still remembering me although i have been ‘disappeared’ in penang for quite sometime.. dedicated to all my friends.. may our friendships will be something which we keep forever, no matter where you are.. i will always remember you
p/s: to my best friend SiewSiew, Happy Birthday !!!! May all your dreams come true
luv and kisses,
Lennie
If u ask me how was my past few days in clinic, i think i would say very bad.. working in clinic can be very challenging but i enjoy it very much… treating patient can give me satisfaction especially when u manage to do something to help patient.. since i am STILL a student, i am bounded by some rules… there was an incident which happen few days ago that upset me quite badly .. i was caught in the middle of two lecturers from different field.. both of them had different opinions in managing my patient… well since i am the STUDENT so i end up to be the victim and in the end my patient still need to bare with the loose denture 
was pretty upset for the past few days.. what to do… still have 9 more months to go and the stress and work keep pilling up… i really hope to get over this soon…. can i?
today is the second day of my full day clinic… yet i have started to complain ~ So Tired…. i still need to continue this till i grad… treating patient is not as tired as cleaning all the instrument, running to get the material, writing folder and searching for the lecturers to see your work.. the thing is… u need to do that ALONE… ya…we are practising the two-handed dentistry… meaning that u are the operator and u are also the assistant….
did a treatment on a 5 years old boy…. i think i have fully utilized all my energy to get his attention and asking him to be coorperative during the treatment because he just cant stop moving his head and playing with the suction tip .. imagine to do that for the whole morning … that is why i am so exhausted and somemore having 2 patients in the afternoon.. i think i shouldnt call for 2 patients in the afternoon…. if not because of the increased requirement… probably.. i wont be as stress as i am right now… should stop pushing myself too hard.. it is just the beginning…cant imagine that i am actually sleepy at 830pm….
Dunno why feeling moody.. probably because of stress in final year..futhermore i cant log into msn today suddenly feel very tired.. maybe because i am going to start my FULL DAY clinic next week.. and i will continue that till i grad..every weekday (Sunday till Thursday, ya, in Kelantan, Sunday is like a Monday while Friday and Saturday are the weekends) from 815am to 5 pm sometimes need to go to lab at night… i just cant wait to grad.. i think i have said it MILLIONS times already oh my god.. looking at the calender… it is september already… cant believe that i am going to past a quarter of a century.. when i was young i use to think that by 25, you should have finished ur study, getting the freedom u want, mature… cause that is what i see in my family.. my aunties were so mature at that time..i feel like i am not as mature as them hehe 
I always find that people write down their wish list in their blog.. i was just wondering can i write one to
I wish to be happy and healthy everyday…
I wish all my family and friends are happy and healthy everyday
I wish there is no more pain and suffering in this world
For the gadget list… i hope to change my handphone coz my # key is not working anymore and it is also switch off itself sometimes.. hope to get a camera phone like to take pictures.. a new digital camera… i wonder can i have an i-pod too.. is this too much? hahaha
Today is not my day… lady luck is not with me … was trying to complete the dental practice but ending up i was not happy with my work so need to redo… was searching for the extracted teeth the whole afternoon, ya we did our dental practice on extracted teeth before we do it to the patient…. to make my day worse, the school has announced the latest clinical requirement.. they increased so many requirement yet they reduced the clinical session for that particular subject … i wonder can i complete it in time…. i feel like i am suffocating …. it reminds me the theme song in smallville ~ somebody save me ….
Meeting old friend is something i looking forward to especially my primary schoolmates whom i had some great time with. I was never a bright one in primary futhermore i was labelled ‘the crying baby’ cause my lacrimal gland was easily get stimulated … i can still remember when i was in standard one, there was a boy who made me cry just because he had taken my eraser … come to think of it, i am quite amazed at the rate of my tears falling and rolling in my eyes hahaha… that was in the old days… i dont cry that easily now { i think } do u still keep in touch with your primary schoolmate? fortunately i do .. not just one but with a group of people they are my best friends.. the people whom i grow up with.. really grateful to have them.. just read in the internet about the shocking news of the crocodile hunter, Steve Irwin… life is short.. you will never know what is going to happen tomorrow… cherish the love u have…
After few days of indulgency in kl, i am back to campus again… feeling depress and low…with many works pilling up in front of me… i really hate the vicious cycle which i need to go through everytime i go to kl… feeling excited in the beginning and depressed when coming back to kb when can i break the cycle?
watched a couple of movies.. that ‘monster house’ really caught my eye.. really salute Steven Spielberg for giving a nice touch to the effect of the movie… it even scared some of my friends haha.. it is not that kiddish anyway… for ‘nacho libre’ it is not so nice however you can laugh at some funny scenes..
by the way, i think i need to clarify something in my previous blog… regarding the statements about soulmates.. that is just my opinion about the common reasons people would give… it is not equivalent to my actual thought about soulmates.. i guess i better make some changes in the post it is getting late… need to recharge myself… hope that i will have a good day tomorrow
