我要‘恐龙’：）

刚才写的 blog 因为 load 不到， 找不回了 *哭*

懒惰再用英文写回，

很开心因为今天不用看病人，

早早就去给未来妈妈讲讲照顾口腔的方法，

然后跟学校的巴士去KB 看两间私人的诊疗所，

听听他们的经验，不错因为开口关口都是钱 ：）

下午主持forum ， 好闷的话题 ~ gender issues in dentistry…

已经很尽力了， 放了一些 jokes 还是无法阻止同学们见周公  *笑*

好向往这星期四的新加坡 trip ， 很短而已， 只是去开会。。。

当然好想去看戏，吃好的，shopping 。。。*发梦* 难得离开这个古板又可怜的地方。。

可是要熬 15 个小时的火车, 没办法那是最便宜的方法。。。希望是很开心的 ：）

距离是很残忍的，

有时真的希望我有‘任意门’，

最近的努力开始有看到成果了，

不知道这次能不能成功，

好期待哦！！！

阴天

最近都下雨，我好冷，

很喜欢睡觉和发梦。。。

因为在梦里很开心， 至少我不是一个人 ：）

然而我也有发恶梦的时候。。。

原来时间很喜欢作弄人，

我都给它玩了几回。。。

有时事事并不是有所谓的天时，地利，人和就可以成事了。。。

不同的timing结果也是不一样。。。

若一直执著于结果，人生很痛苦。。。

好多回忆在脑海里。。。

没有它们就没有今天的自己。。。

很多东西很可惜，都是可遇不可求，

最近很努力。。不知有没有结果。。。

可是真的很想尝试一次。。。

什么都不管。。。 就这么一次，让我任性吧！！！ ：）

Needle attack

It has been a while since my last post. Well, many things happened recently. Was wondering how to summarize what i have been through… hmmm…

at least now i can see some lights shining on some of my requirement, truly hope that i can manage to fulfil it..:)

was doing extraction on my coursemate again.. glad that it went smoothly… had a bad time today.. accidentally injured myself again.. not needle prick injury.. but SCALER TIP injury.. so weird??? am i so vulnerable??? the staffnurse took my blood today.. well i guess dentists are self-centered coz we enjoy give local anesthetic injection to the patients but we are afraid of needles poking our mucosa i was panicked to see the needles today.. how come it seems so BIG!!!!  and i dont know why my blood was so viscious during the collection. Thus, the staffnurse was having hard time to collect my blood and i end up with 4 puncture wound hurting both my left hand and my left forearm:( imagine with my struggling and screaming, i think i will be hot topic of the week… i know i have a low pain threshold need to avoid anything sharp for the time being..

特别的一天。。。

今天很不一样，甜酸苦辣都有了。。。

老师请吃Secret Recipe，很开心。。。

想做的东西做不成，很伤心。。。

需要的东西不在身边，很难过。。。

把我给弄火了，很生气。。。

大家都来齐了。。。

我已没感觉了。。。 ：）

站在悬崖上

我又站在悬崖上

我不懂该不该就这样地跳下去

我有摇摇欲坠的感觉。。。

只差一步我就掉下去了。。。

今天天很黑。。。

下很大雨。。。

我的雨伞呢？不见了。。。

所以我淋湿了。。。

好冷。。。 几时我才能感觉到温暖呢?

雨还是一直下。。。

好期待天晴的一天。。。

Cold…

it is raining everyday due to the monsoon season.. . so cold.. well the coldest place in the campus is my school owing to the fact that there is a HUGE refrigerator in the first floor besides the laboratory which is storing the liquid nitrogen for storage of stem cells and other cell lines.. u can imagine i am wearing my normal outfit, lab coat and SWEATER!!! 3 layers! and i still feel cold

How to mend a broken heart? in life we cant always get what we want all the time… there are so many factors controlling what is happening .. sometimes we just need luck and faith… sometimes even u have every single factor which u need to accomplish something but u still fail to get it.. another way of saying is that probably you are not meant to have it… i dont know is this some phrase that commonly use to console people but i always use that phrase to console myself when things go wrong and i think it makes u easier to accept the truth.. in short.. Relationship is not on first come first serve basis…u need to make a move if u find one… you cant just sit down and wait for the flower to blossom.. u need to provide nutrient and water.. it takes both hands to clap..so be brave, accept it, move on and be happy…i know it is not easy but u can do it cause wound heals with time…

雨季与小黑

好久都没写了，

connection很差， 有时完全不能上网，

最近是下雨和小黑的季节，

小黑是在我来到这里遇到的臭虫，

一来到就会很多很多。。。

有时会布满楼梯口，水沟。。。

最近想很多。。。

想人生，想未来。。。

我又站在十字路口了。。。

这次该向左走还是向右走？

快乐是单纯的  ：）

觉悟。。。

白色的帆布，

突然加了红色的漆，

感觉怪怪的，

逃不出那个红色的框框。。。

放心！我不会再“从蹈覆辙”了。。。

因为人都是自私的。。。

今天我“领教”了。。。。

Raya Celebration

the clinic was filled with Raya decoration..everybody looks so fresh after the raya break.. must have a good time back in hometown. We had party in our clinic with the staffnurses and sister on thursday..all my malay coursemates brought the raya cookies and we had a sumptious lunch before clinic started, we were eating inside the study room while patients were waiting at the waiting hall *haha* thanks to all my coursemates, sister and staffnurses for the delicious lunch

went to Dean’s house on saturday for raya open house.. had a great time.. wow they really cook alot… imagine almost all my batchmates (>40) went… in short, my Dean has a BIG house and GOOD FOOD which can cater all of us *LOL*.. the house is nice wih a big, well-decorated garden surrounded by the fruit trees (durian, cempadak and banana trees) after we tour around the house i realised that it has become the dream house to some of my coursemates.. one thing strange is that the house is quite windy although they didnt install air-conditioner, probably due to high ceiling..

talking about dream house.. i just want to have a nice and cosy place to stay.. ideally landed property (an apartment unit also not bad).. the most important thing is to stay with my love ones…land is getting expensive with the inflation.. i really wonder when i can own a house *dreaming*

Postholiday blue…

Finally my long (not really long, but i cant ask for more) awaited holiday come to an end, i am back facing the reality again… with EXTRA pressure and EXTRA work…  feel suffocated.. few of my patients didnt turn up for their appointment.. that stress me abit.. hope i still can complete the requirement in time..

few weeks i didnt blog already.. i always find myself thinking about the future.. is it because i am going to graduate soon, i find myself in a dilemma again? where will i be posted.. what i want to do after graduate etc.. i have so many queries in my mind.. keep on asking myself what do i want in life.. is that normal? or i just create problem for myself?

was reading some of the books which i have read before { bed-time reading, my good ‘lullaby’ } noticed that i have changed, i have different thoughts now comparing last time.. probably i dare not say that i cant accept certain things in life anymore cause when u reach that stage in life.. u will think that it is normal for u to go through it.. *strange*